It seems like everyday that I come across some new piece of information or idea that changes the entire feel of this decision process. I usually tend to blow things out of proportion, and thought at first that it was two sided decision - one path or the other. It turns out that this is not the case, and it's going to be alright if I don't choose this path, I will be able to take it later on. However, there are advantages to taking this path now, and it could help me out in the long run. Then again, if I don't take that route, I'll be fine as well. There are advantages and disadvantages either way. . .
Don't get me wrong, the decision is still going to be really hard, and I'm going to have to pay a lot of attention to the feelings in my mind. At least have the knowledge that I won't completely miss out on the opportunities I once thought I would.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Decision in the Works
I apologize in advance for the conflicting tenses this post will contain. My mind isn't just thinking past-ward, forward, or current-ward; it's switching in and out throughout the three.
Oh wow, the past couple of weeks have been awesome, scary, nervifying, wonderful, and stressful. I am in a very interesting point of my life right now; a big decision is ahead of me. Now, maybe I'm over-reacting, and maybe it's not that big of a deal, but I beg to differ. The path ahead of me is split, and if I choose one route, I forfeit something wonderful for something else wonderful. I can see myself walking either path, but it's so hard to choose. I want this path so bad, but am scared to death of it at the same time. But if I choose the other path, I will always regret not taking the first. The first seems so appealing, yet I need to fully understand what I would be getting into. . .
I can't hurry this decision, I won't hurry it. No matter which direction I choose, I have to be dead-sure that it's what I want. It's going to take me a while to come to the final conclusion, yet I'm going to need to reach that conclusion by April. Will I be able to? I have to; one way or the other, the decision will have to be made by then.
More details regarding the decision and what this is all about will come.
Oh wow, the past couple of weeks have been awesome, scary, nervifying, wonderful, and stressful. I am in a very interesting point of my life right now; a big decision is ahead of me. Now, maybe I'm over-reacting, and maybe it's not that big of a deal, but I beg to differ. The path ahead of me is split, and if I choose one route, I forfeit something wonderful for something else wonderful. I can see myself walking either path, but it's so hard to choose. I want this path so bad, but am scared to death of it at the same time. But if I choose the other path, I will always regret not taking the first. The first seems so appealing, yet I need to fully understand what I would be getting into. . .
I can't hurry this decision, I won't hurry it. No matter which direction I choose, I have to be dead-sure that it's what I want. It's going to take me a while to come to the final conclusion, yet I'm going to need to reach that conclusion by April. Will I be able to? I have to; one way or the other, the decision will have to be made by then.
More details regarding the decision and what this is all about will come.
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